...the lost routine

routine

And then it was gone.

When you have a rhythm and a way to live your everyday life you can keep up with doing things on a daily basis. It is just a thing you do before you go to bed, or when you wake up in the morning. Days pass but some things stay the same...

...and then I lost it. Everyday suddenly seemed different than the one before and was full of so many things to learn, to think about and to cope with. My life began to feel like I am a leaf being blown around by strong winds in autumn. Not in a negative way, flying around the place involves a certain amount of fun and definitely a huge amount of intense feelings and experiences, but it makes it hard to fit in things on a daily basis. I don't know anymore when I will get to do what, because every second my life seems to take unexpected turns. After a while of trying to keep up but failing terrbly I just had to admit that I lost it. I lost my routine...

After doing a daily sketch since the first of January 2011 I feel like this habit has come to an end with the last months of 2014. I look back onto all the little pictures which described my life for the last years and I am happy to see which progress I made. Nevertheless I have bigger things to look forward to for the next year. I had hoped to still being able to finish this year with a picture for everyday, but I would have quite a lot to catch up on now, and I don't want to cheat that much. And most of all I feel like I need more now than daily sketches. I have the strong urge to work on drawings for longer and put more thought into it. Which will be part of my ideas for 2015...but more about that on a later stage. For now I will throw in a sketch whenever I find time, and most of all my head, to be able to do it, while I float from one exciting experience into the next one...

I am out out of schedule, but I had to leave the train for a while :)

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